Journal Entry: Thu Aug 7, 2014, 7:10 AM
So. Still jobless. I have no clue as to why everyone everyone is refusing to hire me. Eviction is yet again imminent and now my utility companies are threatening to cut the umbilical. In what world does having a fucking bachelor's degree and almost a master's equal "overqualified?" Oh yeah. The good ole US of A. I have lost count of how many applications I have sent out because I almost never get replies even if I call. I've had dozens of interviews, none of them have worked out. The teaching position I thought I had in the bag won't begin until January and even then I'm not guaranteed a job because they can cancel classes if not enough people sign up for them. The company I was freelancing for has totally left me in limbo and I have zero savings. I don't even have anything that I can sell because no one wants to buy my artwork (not for what it's worth anyways...and no I WILL NEVER do $1 and $5 commissions, that is insane).
I wouldn't be as depressed if the fact that I'm graduating in the spring wasn't happening. If I can't get a job now how the hell am I going to get a job once I actually have another goddamn degree? If I was born 20 years ago this would not even be a problem, I wouldn't have even chosen to get a master's degree because I'd be set with a full time well paying job with just a bachelor's. I'm sick of being jerked around and jumping through hoops and spouting off buzzwords during interviews. I'm tired of constantly worrying about money. Every single time I think things can't possibly get any worse they instantly do. I found out yesterday that somehow I owe my leasing company almost $900. I have no idea from what ass they pulled that figure so today I get to go plead for clemency yet again.
I would punch a wall, but I'm too tired to do so. I really can't take this anymore.